Prepare for vulnerability.
Something happened recently that blew my mind. Something I never thought could happen. Something I wasn’t prepared to hear and feel.
It was a Sunday night. I worked at my day job, came home and edited pictures, went out to dinner with my friends, came home and edited more pictures, and then gave Madison a shower. We played for a while and I mentioned to Michael about how exhausted I was. I had so much on my plate that day and I knew I had barely seen him. I did something terrible and he noticed.
I forgot him.
He was with the kids while I was at work, fed them dinner, took them to the park, went grocery shopping, all while I was getting everything done that I needed to do. After putting the girls to bed that night, he said, “Ya know, I understand you have your photography, your other job, the kids, the kids’ sports, the blog, but you wanna know what else you have? A husband.” And my heart sank. I have been so busy with everything else that I hadn’t noticed that I haven’t set time aside just for him. Sure, we talk every day and communicate about the kids, and we do have our meaningful conversations, but when was the last time we had been out just us? I literally don’t even remember.
So, Michael, (if you even read this), I promise to do better.
I promise to never make you feel unnoticed.
I promise to dedicate myself to you as I vowed to do.
I promise to make sure that you feel loved.
I promise to not take you for granted.
And lastly, I promise to put you above any of the other stuff that doesn’t matter the way you do.
It’s so hard for life to get in the way and blind you of the things that matter the most. My anxiety piled into my busy life doesn’t help in the least bit. I try to please everyone and I guess in the back of my mind, I always thought of my husband as a constant, something that will always be there. But let me be a reminder to anyone that reads this, nothing matters more than your family. They love you at your highest highs and your lowest lows. My husband goes through so much with his job and I’ve noticed that I don’t praise him enough.
Michael- You are wonderful. You are always quick to help anyone that needs it. You sacrifice your life every time you deploy, which makes you such a better person than me. You are my rock, even if sometimes I don’t show it. I’m blessed to have you. I’m also super excited that you are on your way home right now with a cheeseburger for me even though I’m supposed to be dieting. You are the real deal, you hottie.